For the most part my life feels chaotic. Perhaps I live in what might be considered controlled chaos, but none the less chaos. As I have said before, I spend much of my time moving things around my house, toys, laundry, toys, and more laundry (lots of laundry). The rest of my time is spent in the car or running errands, picking up kids from school, grocery shopping, kids activities, and I work part time out of the house. I am of course "Thankful" for my family and I love my kids with all of my heart, but most days go by as an endless string of "to dos". At bedtime I collapse and hope the baby does not wake up too many times so I can get a good stretch of sleep so I can begin again in the morning.
I do believe my Maker has a plan for my life and family, unfortunately in my busyness I often do not recognize "the plan". For those of you who know about our trip to China, I can say I did not recognize the plan He had for us while we were in country. However, I know that our family would not be complete without June. In retrospect I can see the perfect plan that was at hand even though I did not recognize it at the time. I felt the same way when I found out we were adding another baby to our family, of course thankful to have another child, but wondering about "the plan". "How can we handle five?", was my first thought when I found out I was pregnant. Sunday at church God gave me a glimpse, a glimpse of "the plan" that I should embrace each and every day....let me set this up for you.
I was not paying attention in church the way I should be. June was squirrely, really squirrely, and Kendall was a little on the tired side. At one point June had slumped down on the kneeler and had her legs around the person in front of her. I asked her to sit up in the pew and her answer was, you guessed it, "NO!". I pulled her off the ground (we were in the third pew) and tried to make it to the vestibule, her silver sparkle shoes flew off and a nice man carried them to me in the back of church where June stood with her arms crossed scowling at me. That pretty much sums up where my head was that morning. However, TJ was holding Kendall and trying to get her comfortable so she would fall asleep. As I watched him, I literally felt the love he feels for this baby. He loves her, and June. All three of the boys love these two girls and for a split second "the plan" was perfectly clear to me, crystal clear.
So, this Thanksgiving, I am thankful for "the plan" God has for my family. I am going to try harder to embrace each day he sets before all of us. When chaos claims me (and it will) I am going to remember the sweet glimpse of "the plan" that He gave me that morning.
Have a wonderful Thanksgiving. May all the blessings of the season be yours.